I don't want to breathe

I want to eat air in big chunks
Till I choke on oxygen
It gets stuck in my throat
And I'm forced to slam my own back
I want to sink my teeth
In life's throat
And drench me in its blood
Be angry be thirsty be fucked up
And maybe a little mad

I don't want to breathe
I want to explode every time
I inhale and burn hotter than hell
A supernova with fingers raised to the sky
Screaming fuck the gods till I burn down and die

I don't want to breathe
I want to turn myself inside out
Till my heart is exposed
To all the bullshit
That the world wants to throw at me

I don't want to breathe
I don't want to survive
I don't want to breathe
I just want to be alive

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