swallow the flood

the water laps my knees 

and everything is fine

i drink away my sorrows

in vodka and wine

the water up to my thighs now

things swim and bite my toes

if I bleed, i do not care

if I can't see, it's not there

the water rises and rises till my belly

the hollow filled with calories and lies

the machine in my gut complains

but I let the water rise

up to my neck in this now

floating, forgetting to swim

the water makes its way inside me

and i let it win.

----

there is no point in writing a poem that would not kill you if it stays unwritten. this one is for the void.

to drown

to drown
is a dream
take me in
the depths
of your warm embrace

liquid mother
fill me up
I'll breathe you in
till we are one
and one are we

let me sink
in your love
hold me close
and break my heart
with your love

and then rip my skin
eat my flesh and lick my bones
bury me in your sands
at the bottom
like a stone

so I will stay for a thousand years
till the ships come
to idolize
my remains

and then, the water

once the songs of wisdom are sung
and the king sleeps with the pawns
the dust settles on the carnage
the curtain falls, the fat lady yawns

once the rats have eaten through
the bitter heart of the beast
the sun has set and we are waiting
a thousand eyes glued to the east

once the stars have done their dance
supernovas dimmed to sparks
and we're left in dark caves
decorating walls with our marks

And then shall come the water, love
to wash it all away
And what a story it would be
to tell another day
--

*chomp*

Wishing for the Seas

They say the cure for everything is salt water
Tears, water, or the sea
Because I would not go to sea
Won't the sea come to see me?

Would the waters rise in this city
Till waves lap on my feet
Small fish eat the dead skin
While all around me people swim

I want to breathe the ocean air
I've heard it's pretty fucking lit
But I won't get out of this room
Poseidon, just get on to it

Send me a wave or a thousand
Let the cars float on tides
For when the water rises
It won't take anyone's side

---
My heart flooded.

Stupid Man

A man walks to the edge of the river
He feels a chill and starts to shiver
Something must have walked over his grave
He thinks about giving up being brave

He breathes deep and fills his lungs
Strange words start forming on his tongue
He whispers some and screams the others
Throwing curses at the wind and the river

He steps in the frigid calm waters
His feet rustle the mud at the bottom
A movement far away catches his attention
And he walks deeper into the river

He knows that they are coming for him
He knows how fast they can swim
He knows how sharp their teeth are
He knows they are not too far


OH MY FUCKING GOD!! I'M SO STUPID!! THIS RIVER IS FULL OF FUCKING PIRANHAS!!!