Haunted

What the fuck has happened?
Warriors turned to bitches
Complaining about the wounds
That were once hailed as prizes

These scars were a gift
Now they're just ugly marks
The roars that shook the heavens
Now just biteless barks

Saddened, maddened and weak
The strong are now just meek
Waiting to inherit the earth
By default, without war

They don't even feel the shame
Of mud splattered on their name
I know why they fail to see
All of them are only me.

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Won't apologise if i am flooding your feed readers or blog link lists with posts. I just feel like writing today. Bear with me. Please.

The Day I Lost My Mind

Ugly ghost of anger
Will rip me apart
Feast on my rotting innards
I do not want to escape.

I always waited for this day
When i knew i'd go insane
But now that it's here
I do not want it at all

But how can i refuse?
I fucking asked for this.

I carry this bag of hate on my back
Bent, ready to be fucked over by the world
They say that they love me a lot
I don't feel it for some weird reason

I know I'm getting used
I think I deserve this

I'm searching for the trigger
What kicked off this depression
I'm searching my inner mind
For some kind of confession

But there is none, not even one
Just silence, Blessed silence
Piercing through my thoughts
Coloring them in violence

The Pit Of Hate

Stillness is a strange void
Where thoughts dare not tread
My mind is a black hole
Insiginificating everything

There is only me
Left alone in this pit
With just my hate for company
I don't need anybody

I can feel it bubble in my chest
Like a heart attack, slowing rising
I will puke out swear words
And never get done puking

Why can't i make sense anymore
I am not even unsure
The deadening certanity
To be trapped in this pit
For eternity
Till my hate kills me.
Till my hate kills me.

Who Understands?

Even after love and hate
There is a deep desire in every man
To be understood
With all his faults, failures and fuck ups
To be understood.

That's why men keep dogs as pets
Because dogs understand
Dogs don't judge
They will love you even if you murder babies
Women on the other hand...

There is no anger even
Just a vapid desire
No glowing embers
Just an aftertaste of fire
The memory of a kiss, drifting away

Thoughts, broken
Like pieces of glass
In kaleidoscopes
Making ugly shapes
Wishing for someone
Who understands.

Too Little Time

When you look at a sunset
How can you say
that there is no God.
This cannot be a work of science
There is too much entropy
Dancing in perfect harmony
With something that shouldn't even exist
(Scientifically)
There is too much magic in the world
And too much beauty
But too little time to take it all in
Too little time

This Stupid Heart Of Me

The world has disappeared
In a puff of smoke from your lips
The perfect O
You know

There is a sadness in your eyes
Sad, as watching a fish die
Don't look at me like this
Don't look at me like this

Say a prayer to the moon, a kiss
She is watching us tonight
The glowing ember of your cigarette
The burning heart of me

Can't you see?

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I want to come back to what i do best. First step has been taken. Soon, we run. Expect good things.

Fuck The Darkness

Remember when you were 13
There were things you'd not seen
Life was strange, world was new
Now what the fuck happened to you?

Remember you said those awesome things
You'd face life, whatever it brings
But now you say go with the flow
You don't listen to your soul scream any more

You think the darkness is blessed
And all your thoughts are messed
You laugh sitting alone, scream its ok
While the time of your life slowly slips away

So wake up soldier wake up
Fuck this darkness, take a stand
High time you gave a fuck
About things you don't understand

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This is for me. I need to do this.