Soul Puke

I want to kill myself
Everyday
I wear these chains
In pain
In pain
It takes balls to pull the trigger
I'll always respect Kurt for that
They can commercialize his soul
But for that one moment
He'll be my hero

What does it take to break free of
All this?
Maybe a pair of balls
Maybe two
If I don't have these
Do you?

I bite my tongue
I don't want to speak
Anymore
I just want to lie in this conformity
That has rusted my soul
And the rust pukes
Now
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*stretch fingers*
Yeah, feels good to get that out.
Welcome back
Let's rock out!

Hello, been some time.

Many times, we read blog posts where the blogger apologizes to everyone for not posting becuase of a number of strange and equally amusing excuses.

I have not written here for a while, because I've been writing on my primary blog, A Story A Day . I wrote there regularly for around 22 days. Missing five days out of Feb cuz of structural problems or travel obligations, but every night that I was in my room, I wrote. The days I wasn't I wrote on paper.

Why am i telling this here. I don't know. Just freeing up my head space. I just saw that the follower number for this blog has increased. Thanks for following the blog :) i'll come up with some rhyming madness in a bit.

If you want to connect on twitter, my handle there is @fubar69. Follow me, say hi, tell me you came from Poetry and I will love you like my family member :)

Laters.

Hello Valentine

Here we are again
The 14th of February
In fun or in pain
I wish it was still January the first ;)
Why do we need to fix a day to love?
When every day is just beautiful
With you around
I hear every sound
See every color
And smell strange wonderful
Things, I never knew about
One day is too less, love
Really,
I want valentine years
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Gonna CC this poem to my girlfriend :)
Hope you have a kickass valentine's day!
 

This is a test

Trapped In A Chair

I am trapped in a chair
A monkey
I get paid for my life
Is there a price for life?
For time?
For youth?
How precious or useless is it?
I do not know.
I just don't.
I wait for the paycheck.
Every 5th of the month.
But I wish
Oh, how I wish.
I were in Ladakh.
But here I am
Trapped in a chair.

The Look on Your Face

So it begins,
Like it always does
There is nothing new to it
We've seen all this a million times before
The same stories, with different people
Love, anger, lust, sadness, madness
Oh please can we have something new now?
How long till the evolution ends
And we become
Angels or pigs in zen
As we were supposed to be
Weren't we?
Oh, i know that look on your face!
No one told you!
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Your life is happening without your knowledge, take charge, don't be dumbfounded when the moment of reckoning comes.

It Doesn't Matter

Sharp swords
Sharper words
How are you going to cut me?
Love.

Time heals
Scabs peel
You know I love the pain?
Never enough.

That look
Yes THAT!
It pierces me, in the sickest ways.
I cry sometimes.

I worship
Only you
So even if you fuck me up
No, it doesn't matter.
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See, I believe in a no holds barred level of devotion. Yeah, that's what I believe in but I don't expect that from anyone, but me. Expecting anything from anyone is just plain selfish and wrong. The best you can do is dedicate yourself. That's all.