stillness

the stillness at the bottom of the sea
the silence at the bottom of a bottle
half my dreams i dream of drowning
others, twisting on a throttle

it seems like i am gnawing at my own foot
sabotaging my own ship
shooting bullets in the hull
while I'm far out to sea

will the fish eat my bones?
when I am done and gone?
will crabs hide in my skull?
and peek through my eyes?