The Flame

all these thoughts are hurting my head

but this pain is nothing new

it's been with me like a constant dread

even when my thoughts were few

the bubbles froth under the surface

while above is serene and calm 

anger and hate collide in this place

i bleed crimson on my palm

do these ideas have any meaning

none of this ever makes sense

am i awake or only dreaming

this life is just pretense

the flame that burns in me is violent

facing the winds and storms, abashed

once I wished that it was silent

but that moment has passed

now it's all noise and chaos

breaking through the walls i built

this gain will be no one's loss

when the leaves of memories wilt

the rain smelled better

the rain smelled better

when we had to go to school

now it's just an inconvenience 

on way to office

there was a joy in puddles

now they just make the shoes dirty

the innocence is lost

the memories are a ghost

future was exciting when we were little

now there is only fear of future

and the tension that no one mentions

of the inevitable, coming fast

is this the life we had dreamed of?

is this all we really wanted?

where are those dreams now?

i want to strangle them to death.

Excel Sheet Sickness

What kind of strange days are these?

I feel as if I am floating

Above everything that I see

I can even see me

My thoughts are flying in slow-motion

Unable to express any emotion

What strange sickness assails me?

Why won't it set me free?

My sense of smell has time-traveled it seems

I can smell chemistry labs and brick beams

The morning smell of sunrise

The evening smell of birds coming home

I remember my childhood like it was yesterday

When the only care was homework and holidays

Now I think about Excel sheets and weekends

Just Excel sheets and weekends

Excel sheets on weekends

Bumped Into God

I bumped into God on the street

He was carrying a bundle of typewritten pages

About half of the bundle fell to the ground

And the wind took some of the pages away

I am sorry, I said, even though I was not

What a clumsy old God, I thought

As I made a half-hearted attempt

To pick some of the pages up

The old God just stood and watched

Carrying about half of the bundle in his hand

Stupidly, his mouth moved, making words

But I was not sure if I had heard

I picked the pages the best I could

I said, watch you step old God, you should

You might bump into another one of me

He took the pages from my hand, silently

Skittered away

Without looking back

Ghost in the Coffee Machine

It buzzes and hisses

It turns and grinds

It shits out liquid fire

But no one really minds

The ghost in the coffee machine

It spoke to me today

It said words of pain and fire

That I couldn't comprehend anyway

We tried hard to communicate

But we couldn't make a headway

The only emotion I sensed was hate

Anything else, it wouldn't say

Now the coffee is extra bitter

It tastes of desire

And dreams crushed really fine

The coffee machine tells me to resign

--

Just some random weirdness. The coffee machine in office is my best friend.

Pieces

the thing in my chest is broken

shattered into a million jagged pieces

that i collected in the bleeding palm of my hand

and threw in the sky

now we're looking

we're looking at you

watching your every move

watching you grind and groove

you should also watch out too

hey, you

just watch out

one of these days

one of these pieces

will fall like a meteor

through the atmosphere

and smash your skull in

like a bullet from god

Just Empty Words

You don't have to be wrong

For me to be right

For the sake of this poem

We must continue to fight

We can't keep looking for peace

We will never find it

It's hidden in the past 

But we can't rewind it

The only way out

Is within and without

Confusion and chaos

Misery and mess

Who is fucked?

Who is blessed?

Who knows?

No one does

It's all guesses and ideas

Just empty words

Found Poetry

A little background: I saw this phone "review" on flipkart, and it seemed pretty poetic to me. So, I divided it into lines where I felt appropriate, without editing for grammar or typos. The end result is this. Very Nissim Ezekiel. Enjoy :) 

5 Reasons why I would buy this phone
Disclaimer :I am pretty much an android user for 2 years,
which makes my review little aggressive.
Any android fan boys out there
please don't be offended.

1.I get Windows Phone OS with all the apps I need,

I don't need my phone just to have angry bird 

or talking tom,

what I need is quality apps which work for me. 

Facebook and Twitter and all other social sites integrated into the OS 

(so I don't have to do to marketplace install their apps which doesn't help much :D ) 

will save lot of time going through apps 

and figuring out what's new in all of them.

Guys why do you need so much apps in market ? 

Are you gonna install 100000+ apps in your phone ?? 

Are you kidding ?

2. In built Outlook Mobile Client: 

I have an android tablet which I use as my alarm. 

Yeah 

its good for just that. 

When I already spent enough on a tab/smartphone, 

why would I not get a world class Email client or browser? 

Trust me 

The default Email Active sync do not sync folders I have specified 

on my outlook 

nor google has a concept of giving regular update. 

Cannot blame them 

for the fact their vendors messed it all. 

So I will be forced to Buy Email clients like "TouchDown" 

which I found the only app giving a good professional Email sync.
In Case of Windows Phone 

We get the outlook mobile itself present, 

and I get to see all my meetings on the start screen. 

I get complete office mobile version which is an added bonus .

3. Nokia build quality: 

The screen resolution is awesome for this price. 

I will tell you why I feel that. 

I recently gifted someone an android phone 

when nokia did not have 710 or 610 

it cost me around 9.5k, from Samsung. 

The screen resolution is so bad 

that I can see the pixels in them :D. 

This model has soft key which even Lumia 710 does not have. 

I would say this phone would have cost 15k-17k if this was released 

1 year before. 

And this looks to have Gorilla Glass.

4.Camera : 

Agree they don't give you a VGA

(oldddd technology) 

front cam. 

However 

at this price there aren't much phone who will give 5MP cam with LED flash. 

Am I talking like a nokia sales man? 

well I have a Samsung Galaxy S, 

much celebrated phone from the Apple rivals.. 

they don't have a flash for their camera. Nor does their 15k phone Galaxy Ace has it... 

guess what.. an entry level Windows Phone from Nokia has it...

5. Fits my budget: 

I would not spend on 40k iphone to show off. 

I am happy to spend for something fits my needs 

and this phone does it and covers my work and social life.

I Think I Know

I think I understand why dogs go insane

Why they howl at night 

Deriding unknown gods with their wails

I think I know why it hurts so much

We live, breathe and die

Just as a vehicle of suffering 

I think I know why we dream

These thoughts bubbles in mind-drums

Escaping into the night, screaming

I think I know why people kill

They want to feel something

That is better than love or lust

I think I know why 

I think I know

But I know not

Why poetry needs to make sense

Why can't we drown in beauty

And breathe in deliverance. 

Who Cares for Perfection?

let us be rotten to the core

let us never be sure

let us be fueled by action

let us ignore the perfection

we know we'll never attain it

it's a goal we'll never gain it

so let us stop the inaction

and let go of perfection

we need something tangible 

we need something bearable

we need something to hold

we need something bold

but we keep chasing a dream

through the rivers and streams

we go with flow, but we don't know

perfection is always a no go

you can ask why that would be right

because perfection is end to the fight

it's all about said and done

how can you improve perfection?