Indifference

I used to be so angry

I used to be so fierce

I used to curse and swear

I used to live in fear

I still live in fear

With a calm sense of dejection

Indifference has seeped in my veins

Like cold ice water

There are few things that faze me now

I've grown over most of the pain somehow

The scabs are hard like steel

The don't let me feel

Anything

The chaos is just an undercurrent

While I float an inch above the water

I sleep slightly unsure

If I've gotten dumber or become smarter